Physically:
- Exhaustion
- Numbness
- Difficulty breathing/swallowing
- Body aches/pains
- Shivering
- Insomnia
- Rapid breathing/heart rate
- Diminished heart rate/breathing
- “Drugged” feeling, unable to pick up feet without immense effort
- Hearing “echo” when others speak to you
- Difficulty seeing/focusing without effort
Feelings:
- Guilty
- Depressed
- Out of control
- Negligent
- Unfocused
- Helpless
- Angry
- Scared
- Jealous/Envious
- Not cognizant of time passing
- Loss of purpose/role in life
- Lack of self-worth or confidence
- Confusion/Wisdom
- Out-of-self experiences (Watching your life go by while looking on from a distance)
Behavior:
- Forgetfulness
- Short attention span
- Lack of interest in their own well-being
- Hyper active
- Weary
- Detached from life
- Unfocused
- Subdued demeanor
- Uncontrollable sobbing
- Rude
- Forgiving/nurturing
- Angry/Aggressive
- Panic attacks
- Preoccupied with death
- Complete silence
- Rapid speech
- Fantasizing (what if)
Thoughts:
- “I’m going crazy!”
- “I don’t deserve this!”
- “Why do they have all of their kids?”
- “Why did I do this/that to my child?”
- “I feel so alone!”
- “Why didn’t I hold him/her more?”
- “Nobody understands!”
- “Did he/she know how much I love them?”
- “How can I be sad for the rest of my life?”
- “How can I survive?”
- “Why am I being punished?”
- “What if something else happens?”
- “Why am I here and he/she is not?”
- “Will I ever laugh again?”
- “How can I be a parent to my other children?”
- “What would he/she be like as an adult?”
- “Why me?”
- “Does he/she forgive me?”
- “I hate this life!”
- “Why are they here and he is not?”
- “I cannot do this!”
- “If only…”
- “Please let me see him again someday!”
- “How long do I have to wait?”
- “Thank you for this child!”
- “He is worth every tear!”
- “Can he/she see me now?”
- “Is he/she safe?”
- “Was he/she scared?”
- “He/she is worth waiting for!”